Today on Good Friday we start the difficult journey to Calvary. Yesterday after the Last Supper, Jesus went into the garden of Gethsemane and asked his disciples to "watch with me." (Mat 26:38 RSV). The Gospel today is taken from the Gospel of John (18:1-19:42)
Last night in a lot of places people have been "watching" with Jesus, have spend time with Him as He spend His hour in agony. His sweat became like blood and he prays to the Father: "My Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as thou wilt." (Mat 26:39 RSV) Going back He finds His disciples asleep, and ask them if they could not watch for one hour with Him... Then going back He puts the final petition to His father, and gives His total fiat: "My Father, if this cannot pass unless I drink it, thy will be done." (Mat 26:42 RSV)
We need to have a filial trust in God... even through we might not know where this can lead us. In my reflection on Palm Sunday I mentioned that sometimes life seems like a roller coaster, one moment everything seems perfect, the next moment everything seems to fall apart. However, we need to belief that everything is eventually ordered to the good, to love. As these days in the run-up to Easter might seem utterly pointless, with blood, sweat, betrayal, suffering and murder, it might look like evil seems to have it's time... and 'closer to home' we might get the same feeling if we look at what the Church is going through at the moment!
However, through full trust in God we come though it and all and we see the Sunrise on the other side, when we finally reach and behold the Resurrection, even though it might seems so far away at the moment. We can take Mary as an example and guide, and imitate her in giving our full fiat to God, to place all our trust in Him, knowing it will bring joy, but that "a sword will pierce through your own soul also" (Lk 2:35 RSV)... the road is not always easy and without any bumps...
This day is just a day in which words are falling short... it is just a day we have to take in... to walk with Jesus through the events that enfold, and try to comprehend how deep love really goes... these are not days of not many words, but days of silently uniting us with the suffering of our Lord, deepening our union with him in the silence of our heart, uniting with him in a single cry:
which means, "My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?" (Mar 15:34 RSV)
We have to trust... and I think we can continue to try and meditate what real love really is... what it asks of us, and where it leads us...